WAS THE DECISION CORRECT ?

From that particular time when I took the decision I had this feeling of restlessness growing bigger and stronger. I knew the decision that I took was wrong from the beginning itself. But I had no option than making the decision. Actually there was no choice to be made. If anyone was in my position then they would probably be able to figure out how important that decision was.

I can’t deny the good aspects of the decision made. But I can’t even ignore how harsh it has been on me.

Was the decision correct for me? What were my dreams? What I really wanted? The things I thought would happen…..

 What I asked for to happen...Was that a little more? Was it more than I deserved?

Maybe I got something more than I deserved from the beginning itself so I had big dreams.

I must not have had lived in dreams. Not everyone in this world has right to dream especially when it comes to people like me. I must have had restricted my mind from dreaming.

Although the decision made was not the correct one, I wanted to continue in the path that destiny preserved for me. But No! Even that path, that dream has become just a dream. It has become that blue sky which I can see and dream of touching but can’t do it because it’s high, high above me.

Now the determination for attaining the dream has gone. Don’t know how many people will I hurt? They still have hope on me but its only me who knows the determination and hope inside me has torn out leaving it scattered all over.